2023 WINNER OF A NAUTILUS BOOK AWARD!

This remarkable, unconventional—and even adventurous--account of the author’s loss of her husband and her fierce determination to find him again beyond death, blazes a new trail in books about recovery from heartbreak. Through poetry, quotations, visions, powerful storytelling, and a compelling exploration of the three challenges every wounded person must meet: Will grief kill me? Who am I without my beloved? What is my source of strength? Lightmark charts her journey to healing over the course of her first year alone, a time filled with synchronicities, manifestations, contact from the other side, and the realization of a long-held dream to create a living as a writer.

“Exquisitely written. . . and a testament to the power and expansiveness of the human spirit.”

David Spangler, author of Apprenticed to Spirit



“Much more than a magnificent tribute to an extraordinary relationshiP. . . you will be riveted and enriched.”

— David Feinstein, co-author of The Promise of Energy Psychology



About Rondi Lightmark

Rondi is a writer, photographer and climate activist who lives on a small island in southern Puget Sound, WA. She has a Masters in psychology from Saybrook University.